Im not sure if its my HOCD please help =[?

k so i have obsessive compulsive disorder and that has led to HOCD ocd ,, fear of beeing gay ,[ i am on meds for my condition] i member when the hocd started first i used to get intrusive toughts and convinced myself i was attracted to women, and when i came out of it i would think back and think i was beeing silly that im def not attracted to girls iits like it comes in cycles, for eg if i see a girl and i tink there pretty or cool i look up to them and then i think that i fancy them , but like i said it comes in a cycle and i come back out of it again , but if i admire a girl or think there pretty does this mean i fancy them, or isit my ocd also i know of this girl whos and she has a gf, so obviously the hocd kicks up , cause i admire the way the girl treats her gf, its weird its like i dont actuli fancy her but like i admire her and want sum1 who wud treat me the same way accept obviously a boy ....gaaaaaahhhh i cant even explain this properly any way plz help cheers :3